one month old

Dear Lilah,

Today you are one month old.  You feel like such a part of our family already that it sometimes seems like you've been here much longer than that.  But at the same time, I can't believe it's already been a month!

The past few weeks have been somewhat of a roller coaster ride.  We are still trying to figure you out.  We all came down with colds after you were born...even you!  That interfered some with your sleep so it has been difficult to figure out what is "normal" for you.

One thing that we do know is that you really like being held.  You'd rather fall asleep in someones arms than anywhere else.  And you prefer sleeping in our bed over your bassinet.  But we're not really letting you do that anymore...at least not all night long.  When it comes to napping in our arms, I'm torn.  Part of me just wants to go ahead and hold you and enjoy you.  And part of me realizes that it is neither practical nor very fair to your brother for you to sleep in my arms for every single nap. So we're still working on that.

Speaking of your brother, he is one of your biggest fans.  He does complain on occasion about you crying, but he saves some of his sweetest snuggles for you.  And he's already got your back.  When we had friends come to meet you not long after you were born, he made sure that they understood that you were staying with us.  When one friend was leaving, he pointed at you and said, "That's ours."  And when other friends were leaving, he said, "You have to leave her here."  Nice to know that he's already looking out for you.

You are beautiful, my baby girl.  I can't believe you're mine.  I love you with all my heart and am excited to watch you grow and change in this first year of your life.

Love,
Your mama