Wednesday, July 2, 2008

new car for baby! (kendra)

As some of you know, we have been car shopping for a while in hopes of finding a bigger and safer car for baby (and all of baby's stuff). Last Friday, we signed the paperwork and drove home in our new Nissan Rogue! It's slightly used, but in great condition and we like it a lot! It's a "crossover"...basically a small SUV. It definitely meets our requirements of being both bigger and safer than our little Hyundai Accent and still gets good gas mileage! Here are some pics so you can check it out for yourselves!

Saturday, June 21, 2008

lightening (kendra)

I am amazed at how observant people can be. Last week on Tuesday morning, I was at work and the woman who sits next to me asked me if my baby had dropped. The question took me a bit by surprise and my immediate response was, "No. I don't think so," or something along those lines. She said that it looked to her like my belly was lower. I hadn't noticed any major changes myself, but after our short conversation I began to ponder the possibility that she was right. And the more I thought about it, the more convinced I became that baby had dropped after all. Throughout the day I noticed differences in the way I felt. Baby's movements felt different. I no longer felt his or her butt sticking into my ribs and what I did feel seemed lower. I didn't notice a huge difference in my lung capacity, but I did eat a pretty big dinner that evening without getting stuffed. Before going to bed that night, I read the bit in What to Expect When You're Expecting about what it's like when baby drops and it seemed to match a lot of what I'd noticed. To me, my belly didn't seem to look a whole lot lower, but if it was different enough for my co-worker to notice, it must have lowered!

I also read that in a first pregnancy, the baby generally drops two to four weeks before delivery. Of course, as with just about everything in pregnancy, that is not set in stone. And I already knew that I was only a little over a month away from my due date. But to think about baby coming in two to four weeks really freaked me out! Of course, just the night before I'd had a little breakdown because I was feeling so overwhelmed by all there still to do in preparation for labor and delivery and baby's arrival! I'd had a productive evening that next night and was feeling better. But then I read two to four weeks and that set my mind racing! Needless to say, it took a long time for me to fall asleep that night.

Two days later at work, a woman who I'd seen in passing around the building but had never even talked to asked me when I was due and said that she could tell my baby had dropped! And the following day, another woman who I'd just noticed here and there at work told me that she noticed that my baby had dropped this week. I was so amazed at how observant these women are. Even Jason could barely notice the difference by looking at my belly! I don't know, maybe once you've been pregnant you pay more attention to these things. But I found it impressive.

We had an appointment with the midwife last Friday and she confirmed that my belly looked low and that baby's head is engaged in my pelvis. He or she is already getting ready to meet us! I'm feeling pretty good so I'm still hoping baby will hold out a few more weeks. But we're working on getting ready as soon as possible just in case. It's so crazy to be this close! Our due date is exactly four weeks from today! Here's a new belly shot so you can see if you notice a difference...

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

parker baby shower (kendra)

Two Saturdays ago, we had another baby shower! Jason's parents hosted a little shower for us at their home in Parker, CO. It was another gorgeous day, and we had a great time catching up with some family and friends. Jason's grandparents were even in town for it! I've included a slideshow of photos below. Check out the sweet cakes that Betsy made for us...they were delicious!!

Saturday, June 7, 2008

amazed (kendra)

We went in to the doctor's office last week for a regular appointment and after I left, I found myself pondering how amazingly God has designed our bodies. This whole pregnancy thing really is incredible. At the appointment, the midwife did all the usual checks and then said that my weight gain was right on track, my uterus was measuring perfectly, baby's heartbeat sounded great, etc. And as I drove home I was just awestruck at how well my body knows what it's doing. My body is very much able to grow a baby...with relatively little assistance from me.

I mean, it just seems that in order for my weight gain to be right on track, for example, I would need to be paying close attention to it and being careful to eat just the right amount. But not so. Granted, I do eat a relatively healthy diet. But I still don't feel like I've quite mastered eating the right amounts of food as frequently as I should. And yet, my weight gain is right on track. And then there's the fact that most people who have commented on the size of my belly have said how small I am for how far along I am in my pregnancy. And yet, my uterus is measuring perfectly. Which, of course, I've done absolutely nothing to control.

So anyway, it's all quite amazing...not only what my body is doing, but the fact that there is an actual baby growing inside of me! A baby that likes to stick his or her little butt in my ribs, but a baby all the same! :-)

Monday, June 2, 2008

baby bump - 33 weeks (kendra)

Here's that pic I promised...


Thursday, May 29, 2008

due date (kendra)

So, I've decided that since people keep asking to be reminded of when baby is scheduled to arrive, I'd put it up on the blog again for all to see. :-) The due date is July 23rd. At this point, I'd be happy if baby showed up right on that date (there is still much to do before then)...but as it gets closer I might very well change my mind. No matter what, I'm hoping he or she doesn't decide to stay in much PAST that date!

It wasn't until recently that I first understood why most pregnant women get really anxious to be done being pregnant as the due date approaches. It is starting to get a little old. Breathing doesn't come as easily and those cute little baby kicks can sometimes be more uncomfortable than cute these days! But I am thankful to be able to say that I don't have too many discomforts at this point. I am still sleeping pretty well and don't have too many aches and pains. So that is all very nice. The belly definitely seems to be growing so I'll have to post another belly shot soon!

baby shower! (kendra)

A couple of Saturdays ago, some of our friends had a baby shower for us. It was lots of fun! It was a couples shower so boys were allowed. :-) We had it outdoors and the weather was perfect. The sun was shining, and the temperature was just right. We had a little bbq, opened gifts from our thoughtful and generous friends, ate some delicious homemade cake, threw around softballs and baseballs and footballs, and just enjoyed the nice day. It was great! Much thanks to the lovely ladies who put it all together (namely Marcia, April, and Lesley). You girls are the best!

Our nice shady spot for opening our gifts didn't turn out to be the best choice for photos, unfortunately. But here are a few anyway! You might notice Jason's cool shirt. It was actually passed down to him from his dad. He got it when Jason's mom was pregnant with Jason!

working girl (kendra)

Yesterday marked the end of my first project at Measured Progress. Which is why I am finally blogging again. :-) We were actually scheduled to finish tomorrow, but we got done a bit early. I am rather grateful for that because I was originally supposed to have all of next week off before starting my next project, but that has changed. They asked me to be a senior reader on the next project that I'm doing, which means that I'll be overseeing a small group of readers (and getting paid a little bit more!). It also means that I have to train starting Tuesday instead of having all of next week off. So I'm thankful for these extra couple of days to get caught up on things.

It's amazing how much less time there is to get all of the little things done when you're working full time! Okay I guess it's not really that surprising, but still...it's been an adjustment for me. It's been difficult because I can be pretty exhausted at the end of a day at work so I don't feel like I have the energy OR the time to get other things done. But that has definitely gotten better as I've adjusted to getting up early and working all day. And Jason has been a big help as usual...although I think he prefers it when I'm not working and can cook him dinner most nights, do all the dishes every day, etc. :-)

The project that I was on at work was a good one. I was scoring 4th grade writing and although I scored responses to the same prompt for nearly the entire month of May, the prompt was broad so there was a fair amount of variety in the responses. Especially given that they were written by 4th graders. Some of them were pretty amusing. The prompt being what it was, the kids were writing a lot about traditions they have...what they do for certain holidays, where they go on family vacations, etc. Reading all of them got me thinking about what traditions our little family is going to have. It got me excited about the prospect of developing our own traditions for holidays and vacations. One in particular that I began thinking about is visiting my parents in North Carolina with my sister and her family...having picnics at the lake house...the cousins playing together...having fun in the sun at the beach...you get the idea. It will be so much fun!

Sunday, May 18, 2008

good news! (kendra)

So work is keeping me busy and I have had much less time on my hands for things like blogging. I don't know how many of you have even noticed my absence, but I do have some things to update you on. Most importantly, we went in for a follow-up ultrasound last Thursday to get an update on the cyst and found out that it had decreased in size! It is now small enough that it isn't as much of a concern as it had been. At the current size, surgery isn't usually recommended because there isn't as much of a chance that it could cause problems. So we were very happy to receive that news!

We are hoping that it will continue to go down in size and resolve itself without the need for surgery down the line either. I am also hoping that it won't interfere with the birth at all...they keep telling us that it shouldn't, but somehow I'm having a hard time believing that. Maybe the truth is that the pain I might feel from the cyst would pale in comparison to the pain of childbirth anyway. :-) In any case, it is very good to hear that the cyst hasn't gotten bigger. And even better to hear that it is headed in the other direction! We would still appreciate prayers from those of you who have been praying...that it would continue to decrease in size until it is completely gone!

Sunday, May 4, 2008

belly shot (kendra)

I'm in my third trimester now...hard to believe! There have been requests for an updated belly shot, so here you go:


I have been getting a fair amount of comments lately about how small I am. My belly still feels pretty big to me though! The shirt in the pic doesn't show it off quite as well as a bathing suit, perhaps. ;-) My midwife says I'm growing perfectly so I figure I'm just fortunate to not be too big yet. I have noticed that it is becoming more difficult to bend over and reach things on the floor (like my feet). And I haven't had too many aches and pains so far in my pregnancy, but recently that seems to be starting to change. My back has been feeling a bit achy at the ends of the days and my hips are bothering me a bit during the nights. Not too bad yet fortunately!

times they are a changin' (kendra)

Life has suddenly become a lot busier in the past week or so. Last weekend was our babymoon. We went to Steamboat Springs, stayed at the Steamboat Grand Resort Hotel, and had a few days of fun and relaxation.


It went by quickly, of course...but we had a great time. We got back Tuesday night, and I spent the day Wednesday trying to get some last-minute things done before starting my new job on Thursday! I have started a temp job that involves scoring the written portions of standardized exams. I know, sounds like a blast. But it hasn't been bad so far. My current project is scoring 4th grade writing. I'll be scoring responses to the same writing prompt for the entire month of May...but it's a pretty broad prompt so there is a lot of variety in the responses. And some of them are quite amusing. :-)

Anyway, working 8-4 five days a week is certainly a change from life as I've known it for the past few months. It's definitely a good change in some ways...it feels good to have a routine again and to be keeping busy, and it's nice to have some extra money coming our way. But already it feels like there's so much less time to do the everyday things I had time to do before. At least we'll be sticking around more on the weekends for the next couple of months so hopefully we'll be able to get things done then. It definitely feels like there's still lots to do in preparation for baby's arrival!

When I got done with my first day at the new job, I felt completely exhausted. I also hadn't gotten to bed as early as I'd wanted to though. The next day I'd gotten more sleep and wasn't quite as exhausted at the end of the day. Hopefully, I'll be able to adjust quickly and working won't take too much of a toll on my pregnant body. :-)

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

"where we gonna go from here?" (kendra)

So what have we decided to do? Well first, let me say that there is one more very important thing that I have to be thankful for. The support of our family, friends, and even of strangers has been such a blessing. Thank you all for the emails, the phone calls, the thoughts, the prayers. We have been strengthened as you have come alongside us with your loving support.

We have decided on the "wait and see" option. The very next day after leaving the hospital "happened" to be the 17th of the month. On the 17th of each month at the 17th hour, our church has a healing prayer meeting. Jason and I had decided to go, and his mom, who had come up to keep me company that afternoon, decided to join us. We told everyone there our story (well at least Jason did while I cried) and then the three of us were surrounded by members of our spiritual family, who prayed for us. They prayed for healing. They prayed for wisdom. They prayed for peace and strength and guidance and faith. And we placed all of it in God's hands. We left there feeling refreshed and hopeful. We hadn't made any definite decisions yet, but I knew something had changed in that time.

The pain has, for the most part, gone away. There are still hints of it here and there, but it is nowhere near what it had been. We did decide to cancel our trip to Mexico this weekend. The risk involved with waiting and seeing is that I could end up needing emergency surgery if things took a turn for the worse. Emergency surgery in Mexico just doesn't sound like a good idea. We are still going to get away for the weekend for our "babymoon"...thanks to the generosity of Jason's parents. We are just going to head to the cool Colorado mountains instead of the beaches of Mexico.

silver linings (kendra)

Hard to believe it's been almost a week since Jason wisked me away to the hospital. Yet at the same time, it feels like ages ago...or like it didn't really happen at all. The memory of it seems somewhat like a dream. Maybe that's the morphine's fault.

For those of you who haven't heard the story, last Tuesday night just before bedtime I started having a good deal of lower abdominal pain. Jason called our midwife and explained what I was feeling, and she told us that we should go to the hospital...straight to the labor and delivery unit. We did, and a long night of tests and pain and needles and drugs ensued. Jason was super supportive. He stayed up with me, cared for me, comforted me when I threw up for the first time in 7 years or so. It was not a fun night. Painful and scary. But we found out pretty early on that baby was doing just fine. And that was some of the best news we could hear.

They aren't exactly certain what the cause of the pain was. But in the process of investigating, they did find a cyst on my left ovary. At first, they weren't too concerned about that. Smaller, "simple" cysts are actually quite common and can often resolve themselves with no intervention. The plan was to send me home with some ibuprofen and see if the pain subsided over the next day or two. They seemed rather certain that it would.

As we waited to see the midwife one more time before being discharged, we talked about what we might do that evening. But then we continued to wait. And wait. When she finally did come, she told us that the story had changed a bit. Turns out the cyst was larger than they'd originally thought, and that made it more of an issue. Larger cysts are more likely to cause problems than smaller ones. The ob/gyn that our midwife had been consulting with was going to come talk to us about it. So we waited some more.

Soon it became apparent that we weren't going to be doing anything later that evening except hanging out at the hospital. The ob/gyn was rather busy and at one point she was about to come talk to us, but had to deliver a baby next door instead. Finally, she did make it in. She gave us the full story and answered all of our questions. Surgery was an option, but somewhat of a complicated one due to the fact that I'm pregnant. The other option was to wait and see if the pain subsided and check the cyst again in a few weeks to look for any changes in size. There were risks associated with both options. She told us that we were welcome to go home and take some time to think about it. And that is what we did.

We got home between 10 and 10:30pm. We went straight to bed and both slept like rocks that night. We'd gotten some sleep during the day after having been awake most of the night...but we were obviously still exhausted from it all.

Needless to say, it was quite the experience. I'd never spent the night in the hospital before. I'd never had an IV. I'd probably never been in that much pain. But through it all, I had many things to be thankful for. First and foremost, my amazing husband. I don't know how I would have done it without him. I am thankful that baby is doing just fine. In fact, I think baby was pretty oblivious to it all...just kicking away like normal...even the next day when my belly was sore and those little kicks hurt! :-) I am thankful for the timing of it all. If it had to happen, the timing was pretty darn good. It happened when I was home with Jason. I wasn't in FL like I had been 3 nights before. We weren't in Mexico like we would have been a week and a half later. I wasn't even out running errands like I had been earlier that day. I was at home, 5 minutes from the hospital. And Jason was with me. It is true that God does not allow us to face more than we are able to handle. He is faithful to give us what we need to endure. And for that, I am thankful.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

baby dance (jason)

This morning after we woke up, I placed my hand on Kendra's stomach to see if baby was doing anything. He/she wasn't doing much at first, but after poking and prodding for a little bit, baby was up and kicking like crazy! I've never felt baby move so much! It was like baby was doing a dance on my hand. I think baby likes the attention from me when I poke him/her and they push back on me. A couple times baby didn't just push back at me, but moved their little foot across my hand as well. That was REALLY cool! Babies are so amazing. We are bonding already.

baby's first shower (kendra)

This past weekend, I headed to Delray Beach, FL for the first annual BHS girls weekend. That is, I met up with 4 of my good friends from high school f0r a weekend of fun in the sun. We all came from different places: Massachusetts, Connecticut, Pennsylvania, Washington, D.C. and Colorado. It was really great to have some time for the 5 of us to get together and catch up...we don't get to see each other nearly as often as we used to! I am the first one to be pregnant so I got to answer all their questions about what it's like to be pregnant and about baby Fraze. Sucharita and Sayward even got to feel baby kick!

On Friday night, we were getting ready to head out for a delicious dinner at a Thai restaurant in downtown Delray Beach. It was about time to go (at least I thought it was), but when I walked out of the bathroom the 4 of them were sitting at the dining room table with a little pile of gifts in the middle of it! I was definitely surprised (not the easiest task to accomplish, for the record) and so thankful for their thoughtfulness. I opened the gifts, which included adorable outfits, a little froggie rattle, a couple of books, and a promise for socks knit just for baby by one of my friends! And as if that wasn't enough, they also told me that they'd chipped in for a gift off of our registry and arranged with Jason to have it picked up! When I got home, I found out that they had gotten us the Jeep jogging stroller that I had put on the registry so I could get back in shape after baby is born!

I am so thankful to have such sweet, thoughtful friends. I can't wait to dress baby in his/her adorable new clothes! And I can't wait for the first time that my friends get to meet baby. They are going to be the best aunties ever!